oh i have not written in this thing for oh so long...i dont even know where to start...i have been grounded cause my parentals found out stuff that they definately dont need to know about what their daughters/teenagers are doing so that really sucks...i started hs and i love it...i love the people the food...just take the learning part out of it and it would be my oh so perfect world...umm i really havent seen anybody cause as i have said i have been grounded but i am working on it cause i really need to see some of my older friends...umm i went to the VR concert and that was alot of fun i got morgan a phone number and gave this kid a hug for a quarter...then took his cigarettes and wouldnt give them back so i guess that was all good...idk what else to say but that i have to really watch what i do from now on because my parentals have threatened to move me to New York which i guess wouldnt be that bad but i would like miss people?


thats about it for now...

<3

well im really bored so i guess i will update...exactly one week until the concert...so excited...talking to amy about her issues with that guy of hers...went to a vietnamese market...and got jizzy something for her bday!!! she is gonna laugh so hard!!! umm idk...drank japanese soda...it was good...ate vietnamese food and went to the mall but didnt get anything...talked to alot of people while trying to put off this gay report...i am stuck and cant figuire it out...THAT SUCKS
well dont know what else to say...
school starts soon
BLAGH
later
comment?

I wish I could tell myself that he won't do anything...I wish I could trust him...but I guess whatever happens, happens...he's over a thousand miles away...and I can't do anything about it...being faithful to just an idea is just too much to ask...it's at times like these that sometimes you just have to say FUCK IT...no matter how bad it hurts

hmm only thing i can think of right now...i leave tomorrow...it sucks...velvet revolver august 11

later

err schoool starts schoool....soo not excited

hmm well i just got back from seeing wedding crashers...fucking hilarious movie...loved it...nothing really has happened lately...we have been hanging out i guess but i thas been much fun...love it here...dont wanna leave...but whatever what can you do...i gots to see my friends...idk

see a girl on his lap,







He says things to her he never said to me







I ran home to cry on my bed,







Not a word to mother was said.







Father came home late that night,







He looked at me from left to right.







He saw me hanging from a rope,







He took his knife to cut me down.







And on my dress a note was found:







Dig my grave,







Dig it deep.







Dig my grave,







From head to feet.







And on the top put a dove.







And remember this,







I died for love...







Something GOOD will happen to you tonight at 9:22 PM







This is not a joke.







Someone will either call you or will talk to you online and say that they



LOVE YOU.







Do not break this chain







Repost this......


its for myspace chains but idk it was in jizzicas live journal

well today i went shopping and bought a whole bunch of stuff...like i got a jacket, a skirt, a pair of capris, 3 tank tops, a shirt and a pair of jeans that they have to send to my house...nothing really else happened...so idk...later

* Starting Time:5:10pm
* Name : Hope
* Nicknames:Hopey
* Star sign: taurus
* School: divine child high school
* Color of eyes: bluish greenish
* Hair color: light brown, dark blonde somewhere around there
* Shoe size: 8 1/2
* Do You Live at Home?: yea
------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
* Missed school because it was raining: No
* Thrown someone in da bonfire?: No
* Been in a car accident: yes
* Been hurt emotionally: yes
* Kept a secret from everyone?: definatly
* Cried during a Movie: Yeah.
* Ever thought an animated character was hot?: NO!
* Been on stage: when i was little
------------------FAVORITES------------------
* Shampoo: Garnier Fructis
* Fav color: black or pink
* Summer/Winter: summer
* Cartoon Characters: cosmo
* Drink: any kind of jones soda
* Food: SOUP
* Movie: GRIND
* Ice cream: chocolate
* Subject: history
* Animal: duck
---------------RIGHT NOW------------------
* Hair: stiff and curly cause of the ocean water
* Wearing: a bathing suit and shorts
* Eating: a sub
* Drinking: Nothing
* Thinking: i need to take a shower

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
* Cried:nope
* Met someone new:yes
* Cleaned your Room: No
* Been ticked off?: yes
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
* Yourself: never
* Santa: sometimes
* Toothfairy: no
* Angels: Yeah
* Elves: yes
* Intelligent life in space: Yeah
* Ghosts: of course
--------------FRIENDS AND LIFE----------------
* Do you have a soul mate?: No
* Do you have a boy/girl friend: no
* Do you like anyone: yea...
* Who have you known the longest:brittany
* The loudest: Jessica
* The shyest: amy
* Who has seen you cry: amy/jessica
* When have you cried the most: when i got my heart broken
* What is the best feeling in the world?: right after umm nights of fun lol

---------ABOUT GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT-----------
* Long or short hair: medium
* Six pack or muscular arms: six pack
* Good or bad guy: bad!
* Hat or No Hat: i dont really care
* Tan or fair: in between
* Dark or light eyes?: Dark
* Tall or short: taller than me
* Rugged or sporty: Both
* Accent or not: accent
* Immature or mature: mature
* Funny or not funny: Funny
* Cute or sexy: sexy
* Boxers or briefs: boxers

----------ABOUT GIRLS FOR GUYS TO FILL OUT----------
* Painted nails or not:
* Bra or sports bra:
* Cute n' mysterious or wild n' crazy:
* Dressy or casual:
* Dark or blonde hair:
* Dark or light eyes:
* Good or bad girl:
* Intelligent or average:
* Hair up or down:
* Jewelry or none:
* Tall or short:
* Curly or straight hair:
* Pants or dress:
* Tan or fair:
* Freckles or none:
* Accent or Not:
* Shy or outgoing:
* Immature or mature:
* Cute or sexy:
* Boxers or briefs?
* Prep or amish?
* Tomboy or not?
* Musician or model?

--FOR EVERYONE TO FILL OUT--
* Silver or gold: Silver
* Diamond or pearl: diamonds
* Sunset or sunrise: Sunset
* Do you sleep with stuffed animals: not anymore
* Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured: ankle
* Do you have any piercings?: none
* Rain, sun or snow?: rain
* How is the weather right now?: sunny
* Who won't respond: idk
* Who will: idk
* ending time: 5:29

omg you guys i love you...i got out of my mood!!! YAY!!! lol i just have to remember about my friends and what this mood makes me act like...HA well im in new york witch is really cool...umm yesterday all the people at the airport were hitting on me...lol...maybe it was the skirt? wow a skirt me..doesnt happen much...last night i talked to jessie..and big suprise jeremiah...im gonna call him again tonight cause his friend was over...nothing else really happened except i met my family...i love em...they are awesome...haha my old grandma cusses people out!!! omg its hilarious!!! well comment if you like...im loving it here!!! eating my body weight in doritos!!!

there really is nothing I can do right now...talking just makes me feel even more depressed about all of this...I was fine yesterday...but now I feel like crap...i cant do it...i feel like just giving up on everything...i talked to jenny and that really didnt help so idk...i talked to him last night and he was drunk so whatever...

LIFE FUCKING SUCKS

I NEED EVERYTHING TO BE NORMAL AGAIN

I NEED TO FORGET EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED

well i am talking to jeremiah...i miss him and i dont know why...it makes me sad...but today i have just been feeling like shit...there is no other way to describe it...im reading a stupid book, and im away from my friends...which sucks...they know me like no other..and i just need people that understand me and how i think...idk

another whiny day by me

y do i even bother anymore

In life there are your defining moments, you either leave them, or you take a risk, and go for it...

all of this is confusing....i need to get my mind off of all of it

well I'm not sure what I have said lately so I'll just start from basketball camp...ok well obviously I went to a camp...it was alot of fun...a little too much drama...but alot of fun...I met alot of really cool people which was really cool...then I came home after the week, and went to watch the world cup of softball, well it was only part of the tournament...but if usa is in the finals we are definately going...looked at some sweet $300 bats...then cam home, went to bed, n then woke up to go to texas!!!
that was also a lot of fun...alot more than I expected to have... if you know what I am talking about <3...i didnt want to lleave. we were supposed to go to the stockyards (where they used to sell cows, and now it is a whole bunch of nifty little stores) but me jeremiah, and angela all stayed in his room and watched tv all day, I am so bored right now, I wish I was with them, so its all good I guess...so now I am waiting for jenny to call so we can discuss a few details about my trip lol...well thats all i have to say right now...

FIVE MORE DAYS TILL NEW YORK!!!

[ ]hit your parent(s)
[x]been drunk
[ ]smoked pot.
[ ]done shrooms.
[ ]done acid.
[ ]done cocaine.
[x]kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[ ]rode in a taxi.
[ ]shoplifted.
[ ]been fired.
[ ]had a job.
[ ]been in a fist fight
[x]snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ]been arrested.
[ ]stole something from your job.
[ ]celebrated new years in times square.
[ ]went on a blind date.
[ ]smoked a cigarette.
[x]gone on an airplane by yourself.
[x]broken a bone.
[ ]had sex in a car.
[x]White lied to a friend.
[ ]had a crush on a teacher.
[ ]celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ]been to europe.
[ ]made out in a movie.
[ ]taken caffiene pills.
[x]been to disney land.
[x]had a crush on someone you hardly knew.
[ ]been to california.
[ ]been skinny dipping.
[x]regretted something.
[ ]peed on someones lawn.
[x]skipped school.
[ ]thrown up from drinking.
[ ]lost your sibling.
[ ]lost a friend.
[ ]been butt naked bangin on the bathroom floor.
[x] kissed a member of the same sex.
[ ]had sex with a boy. ahem
[ ]had sex with a girl.
[x]been in a car accident.
[ ]partied for days and days straight.
[ ]have had a one night stand
[x]had a family member die.
[x]played 'clue'.
[x]had a sleepover party.
[x]went ice skating.
[x]been cheated on
[x]had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ]had a threesome.
[ ]had a sweet sixteen
[ ]had a car.
[x]drove.

HAVE YOU...
[x] had bf.
[ ] had gf.
[x] had crush.
[x] had a dog.
[x] had a cat.
[x]played a sport.
[x]played more than one sport.
[x]watched sports on tv.
[x]had more than 1 best friend.
[x]get good grades. well sorta
[x]play an instrument. guitar, if you can calll what i do playing
[ ]have slippers.
[x]wear boxers ok like once because me n oe bought them at the dollar store...I LOVE YOU MOE
[x]wear black eyeliner.
[x]like the color blue.
[ ]like the color yellow.
[x]like the color pink.
[x]like the color black.
[x]like the color red.
[ ]cyber.
[x]like to read.
[x]like to write.
[x]have long hair.
[ ]have short hair.
[x]have a cell phone.
[x]have a laptop.
[ ]have a pager.

ARE YOU?
[ ]ugly.
[ ]pretty
[x]ok.
[x]bored.
[x]happy.
[x]white.
[ ]black.
[ ]puerto rican.
[ ]asian.
[x]mexican
[ ]short.
[x]tall. kinda
[ ]grounded.
[ ]sick.
[x]lazy.
[x]single.
[ ]taken.
[ ]looking.
[ ] not looking.
[ ]talking to someone
[x]IMing someone.
[ ]scared to die.
[ ]sleepy.
[x]annoyed.
[ ]on the phone.
[ ]in your room.
[ ]drinking something.
[ ] eating something
[x]in your pjs.
[x]ticklish.
[x]listening to music.
[ ]homophobic. *if you are you have a serious problem*
[ ]racist.

well i went to jessies, but first i had to go to church cause i guess that is what ppl down here do...i saw katie n jessica lawrence which was pretty sweet cause i havent seen these ppl in forever. then we went to taco bell (yummy) n this guy was giving us all of this free food!!! i love that place...then off to the jessica household...4 wheeling for 72 hours...pretty friken awesome right? not!!! i crashed badly twice... one looked like the one from grind...the other one was cause jess went in front of me n i couldnt see so i stopped, the back stalled out, n it flipped, the bad news is it landed on my ankle, n screwed it allllll up...i went to my moms friends house n her son is two and can play the drums...HOW SWEET IS THAT? well nothing really else...my mom bought me some preppy clothes so idk what i shall wear them to...my mom told me to wear my new clothes so i dont scare my dad on the first day...GREAT!!! im not scary n im just not all that preppy...if anything he will buy me new clothes

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
o1 | clowns
o2 | being caught..i hate being grounded
o3 | cheerleaders (who can be that peppy on command i mean come on)
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
o1 | Jessica Delarosa
o2 | Joe Price
o3 | Morgan Smith
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
o1 | My friends
o2 | Tacobell
o3 | my guitar (even though i cant play it)
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
o1 | fake people (ahem u know who you are)
o2 | country music
o3 | crashing on 4 wheelers (it hurts like hell n i did it 3 times)
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THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
o1 | Michael Jackson
o2 | Cheerleading
o3 | Morgans logic (lmao i love you!!!)
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THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
o1 | pens
o2 | a printer
o3 | pictures
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THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
o1 | typing
o2 | watching tv
o3 | talking to people
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
o1 | buy like 10,000 sweet asss cars
o2 | Get married
o3 | learn something that is useful
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
o1 | scream
o2 | take pictures
o3 | go crazy
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
o1 | Crazy
o2 | hyper
o3 | loveable!!!
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THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
o1 | sing
o2 | pretend to like people for long periods of time
o3 | smack the people i hate
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
o1 | lights out-letter kills
o2 | nothing but a good time-poison (its in grind so it is awesome)
o3 | I'll be-Edwin Mclain
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THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
o1 | WHAT?!?
o2 | my god
o3 | sexy!!!
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
o1 | Taco bell
o2 | sonic
o3 | chips
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THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
o1 | guitar
o2 | to skateboard
o3 | how to make special drinks so i can be a bartender
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
o1 | coke
o2 | mountain dew
o3 | anykind of jones soda
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
o1 | Mr. Rogers
o2 | barney
o3 | Sesame street
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THREE SMELLS YOU RECOMMEND:
o1 | adidas moves
o2 | curve crush
o3 | my vanilla stuff
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THREE NAMES FOR MY CHILDREN COULD BE:
o1 | jeremy
o2 | jessica
o3 | michael
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THREE ACTORS/ACTRESSES YOU LIKE:
o1 | kate bosworth
o2 | mike vogel
o3 | adam brody
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THREE ARTISTS YOU LIKE:
o1 | guns n' roses
o2 | the used
o3 | Slipknot
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THREE CANDIES YOU CRAVE:
o1 | crunch bars
o2 | skittles
o3 | TAKE 5!!!!
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THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD SUGGEST:
o1 | Grind
o2 | eurotrip
o3 | the girl next door